thinking about it by S. Taufeequddin Azher




apocalypse: when i was a child i imagined the end of the world.
i saw certain abstracted futures.
in my schoolbooks i saw nameless figures in embrace.
i learnt that women can be bald too.
the future is upon us. let us go then.
let us walk into warm heavy rain.

the blankness
darkened our doorways
for weeks and months.
it occupied our heads
like one great sinus—
silent spaces: : :
occupied by unspeaking faces.

there are forests
growing within my telephone set.
schools of goldfish and herds of whales
swim through spiraling cable.

atlases and the encyclopediae that i
leafed through as a child now
govern my inner rhythms.
the frog speaks to me: his
dying croaks
grow more distant.
but the world awaits:
fungi and deserts and
Leptadenia pyrotechnica.
doilies. my mother.

plastic toys on bookshelves.
books about world geography.
and the history of japan. wooden, brown. white crocheted doiles.
WARE. ceramic, porcelain, lacquer: crystal.
globes. history of the entire world.
TECH: lasers, atoms, steel,
tables, diagrams,

i smell sanitizer.
cats. buddha.
ONE OF MY BOOKS IS GOING TO BE AVAILABLE FOR PURCHASE AT
BOOK WORLD KINOKUNIYA IN 2010.

i think i could exist here for all eternity:
solitary stone-grey sofa.
dark carpets.
that is all that exists in the world.
cold glass—beyond these windows exists nothing.
i brush my teeth. my bag slumps against this elephant-coloured sofa.
this is all there is.

let us
walk,
uncertain,
into the dying light
of a lofty café,
the floors slipping
under our soles
clumsily use
blunt knives and forks
their clanging
titanium-white highlights
flashing in those
of our loud-laughing eyes.
pearl earrings, beautiful women.
beautiful women.

"Look, look: the light of the world."





S. Taufeequddin Azher’s work has also appeared in Expat Press and Citywide Lunch.